I would give anything to be able to call my grandma tonight. I would tell her how much I miss her, how often I think about her, and how much I still need her. I would also tell her that I’ve had one of the most amazing years of my career and life. I would tell her that I’m happy, that my kids have been incredible, and that I finally feel like a good teacher (this would make her day). I would tell her that I sent my seniors off into the world today and it made me cry. I would tell her that I try every day to be the woman that she was and that I still fail at it because she was just too amazing. I would tell her that I’ve wanted to call her so many times over the past year. I would tell her that I’ve cried because I miss her and that I laugh and smile when I remember all of the times I spent with her or talked to her. I would tell her that I cried for 3 hours on my birthday this year because this is the first year I didn’t get a card from her and that’s the only thing I wanted this year. I would tell her that my mom misses her more than anything in the world. I would tell her that I would never want to be in my mom’s place because I don’t know what I would do without my mom. I would tell her that I spent tonight reading through all of the “love letters” she sent me the last year of her life and that I will cherish those always. I would tell her to make sure she gave grandpa a kiss for me, and I’d tell grandpa to give her one of his amazing hugs for me because I’m not there to do it myself. I would tell her that I promise to write her book. I would tell her I love her. I would tell her I miss her and can’t wait to see her again. And I would tell her goodnight.
I can’t believe this world has been without my grandma Rose for an entire year. I wish all of my friends could have known my best friend. I know she’s been watching over me. I miss her so much.